Thursday, January 28, 2010

Overwhelm


Apparently I am unhappy - according to my husband.

Today I worked at my J.O.B. for 12 hours. I am a salaried employee so that pretty much means the more I work, the less per hour I make. I am completely swamped and there seems to be no end in sight. My quality of life in the last two weeks has diminished. I wake up, eat, shower, drive to work, work 9 to 11 hours, drive home, eat, sleep. I am a really exciting and fun person to be around right now.

Problem is, I have thrown all my resolutions out the window by just trying to get through the day. I am exhausted. I am cranky. I am miserable.

I am frustrated because I have been trying to sew a Steampunk outfit for a Calender shoot this Sunday. Folks, its just not gonna happen.

Now, I can sew and sew well. I have make ski jackets and formal dresses. Problem is I am lumpy and sewing for a lumpy body requires alterations of patterns and garments. I just don't have that kind of time and am so tired my eyes burn.

Something has got to give. I need to put myself first. I need to say no to the Calendar shoot even though it is going dissappoint people. I am desperately looking for a way to find balance. I need to learn to say "no".
My thoughts are jumbled and rambling but I just needed to put something down on virtual paper. Maybe things will look better in the morning - at oh dark thirty!




3 comments:

Kelly@TearingUpHouses said...

Awww, hang in there. I've definitely had my share of crazy, overworked years.

Whatever you do, make sure you're being good to yourself. For me, that meant drinking high end loose leaf tea (in lieu of coffee), going to sleep as soon as I was able, and prioritizing working out.

Kelly

Jenn said...

It sucks putting in all those extra hours but at least when you're getting OT pay, you can think to yourself, "hey! more money!" But like you said, when you're salaried, it's another story.

Is it going to be like this at your job forever, or is it just short-term?

paisley penguin said...

Kelly~

Thanks I do enjoy tee and want to make it a habit of drinking it more.

Jenn~

It's "probably" temporary. I spoke to my director today and told him I need to make me a priority and if I can't get enough sleep and workout a few times a week I will NOT be happy.